One Imperfect Year Down!

On July 21, 2022, I published my first ever self-produced podcast episode...

...And I didn't share it with anyone.

It wasn't until episode 3 that I mentioned it on The Melanated Council, a livestream show I cohost along with 2 of my friends who live out-of-state. As of the time I'm writing this, I have only created 16 episodes. And it has been great! Scary, but great nonetheless Not only am I learning a lot about the process of recording a podcast, audio engineering and equipment, but I'm learning a lot about myself, too. 

I was so scared to tell my family about it. My Mom especially. Growing up in a Jamaican household, we grew up feeling like we had to be perfect (I'm sure anyone with immigrant parents can relate to this). Now that I'm grown, I know that there's no one you need to be perfect for. Not even yourself. Because perfection doesn't exist. It's just people's perception of perfection that we feel we need to uphold. And when you were taught to look a certain way, speak a certain way, present yourself a certain way...you tend to get in your head a lot. You think you're always doing the wrong thing, or that you can be doing it better. You second guess yourself constantly, get hard on yourself, and just feel like you're always wrong. It's stifling. It's no way to live.

I created these episodes because I wanted to make sure I was doing this for myself. That I was genuinely enjoying it. And most importantly, if I can do it. Starting a podcast is something I've wanted to do for years. And I'm glad to be finally doing it. It's not big. It's not well-known. I don't make money from this. It's not perfect in any way, shape, or form. But it's mine. It's my creation. And I'm glad it exists. And I'm glad that others enjoy it, too!